Hello, Ragdoll.

While I was laying in bed recovering, I had a lot to think about. We thought I was well but when I asked if you could make me forget, The Oracle decided I needed more time. I’m better now. Hurt, but better. But I have to remember you get hurt by this, too. We’re a team through the good and the bad.

I’ve made some decisions on how I want to live my share of life.

We are going to have to share a lot. Not just our things, but our feelings and problems. I am going to have to pretend to be you, and I can’t get away from that. But Didi told me once you’re pretending, too You didn’t just forget, but you were also was able to do things about your identity like get your real name. Something I can’t really do. Maybe if I take over, but I don’t know if that will happen, or even if I want that.

But I’ve decided I am going to live my own life as best I can. Thank you for helping me get this far. Helping me form up and establish myself. But I think it’s time I made my own decisions, instead of just going by others. I’ll use your name when I need to. And try not to ruin things for you. But otherwise, I will be me and only me.

I won’t be taking half of your job. And I know that puts a lot of unhappiness on your plate. In return, I’ll do my best to be your housekeeper. You are having a lot of problems juggling the jobs you have with the house keeping, and I don’t mind doing it. I’d be willing to cook for you, too, if was as good as you. Maybe that’s something else we can share if you don’t mind me making simple stuff.

I think we have a good thing here with us taking every other day. But since you have much more now that you’re doing the job full time, I can take a few less days. Maybe two days a week to myself. If you feel you can do that, I can do that.

You’ve helped me and given up a lot for me. But I’d like you to take a step back and let me start taking my own steps. When I first came here, you said we were a team. And we are. But I think it’s time we both lead the team, instead of just you.

I love you, Ragdoll. Don’t think I don’t. We’re a team. But I’m going to be as real I can for myself.

–Andrea