Good Morning, Taylor,

I hope you’re waking up okay today. I was so happy to hear that you got accepted at the school you applied to! It’s going to be a long commitment to some really rough discipline, but I have faith in you that you can do it!

It’s a really nice day today on the deck. It’s still kind of cool, but not rainy or windy and not cold. The air feels really crisp and smells good. While I like the cold air, it has this biting feeling I’d never felt before. This just feels nice. I like the cold though. Maybe because my first days here were so cold.

Ragdoll has been getting up earlier and earlier as we prepare for our new jobs. Today was the earliest yet and while I was hoping for a long day again, she was so busy that I didn’t come out until now. This is usually when I come out, anyways, so I guess I haven’t really lost any time. But I kinda did.

But there was a present for me when I came here! New shoes! She wears these big clunky shoes and I wanted something less clunky. They’re a lot like the shoes I wear at The Other Place. She did say she really bought them for herself when the clunky shoes don’t look good, but that they were the kind of shoes I wanted so they’re mine.

I have things now. Like, my things. 🙂

The coffee tastes really bitter today. I wonder why.

The last few days haven’t been all that good. We visited my new town Sunday and it was terrible. While it was really big, there wasn’t anything to do in it, and it was really grungy and run down. I ended that day quick and told her Ragdoll didn’t want to live here. She was disappointed but understood and got me some ice cream to apologize. It was sweet of her, but I really don’t like sweets too much. Ice cream is nice, though. We decided on another city for me to live in on the way home. One I’d already visited and she realized was safe enough for us. I’m going there this weekend.

The next day wasn’t good at all. Ragdoll was angry all day. Really angry. I didn’t want to stay in, but after the day of disappointment and her being so so angry, I decided it was best to stay in. She let me out that night but I didn’t do much but putter around in The Other Place.

Yesterday she gave me the whole day, from wake up to bedtime. It was nice, but I ran out of things to do. I know you want me to enjoy the slow moments, and I do. But what do you do when the slow moments turn into no-moments? When there’s nothing to be done? I guess I need a hobby of some sort. Something to pass the time, slowly and enjoyably. I don’t think archery can be done in the house, though.

I finally had sushi yesterday! Ragdoll went to go pick it up for me. As usual it was way too much food, so I only ate half for lunch, and had the most of the left overs for dinner. I ate one of my left over frozen dinners for my last meal. I’ve eaten too much lately and I don’t like it. Today’s breakfast is just a banana. I’m going to make that tomato sandwich today for lunch.

I read a little, and even watched a movie! You told me to watch Dark City and it was so good. Really intense, though. I liked it, but I felt like it never let up. But I can see why you liked it with the story being about identity. Maybe that’s why I liked it too.

Thank you for shopping with me last night. Victoria swept me up in a frenzy of shopping that I didn’t really enjoy because of how insistent she was about everything. I didn’t know you were sad so I hope we at least gave you a few minutes to forget your troubles. I did get a nice outfit out of it.

I need to work on my face a little more. The head animation shows my teeth a lot and when it does I think I look like a horse. I kind of look like a horse in my head, but I’ve never liked it. If I can fix it anywhere, I can fix it there.

Our new job starts next week. I don’t know how well it’ll go. Ragdoll has promised me half the money we make because I’ll be doing half the job. I like knowing I can pay my own way. But I think it’s better we both just pool our money and pull off of it as needed. What if I have too much and she doesn’t have enough?

I also worry about not being able to do the job. She has done this work for her whole life here. I haven’t. I was hoping to dig into her memory for help, but you both think that’s a bad idea. So now I’ll really have to pay attention to the training and hope I can do it. I guess if it gets bad, I can always pull Ragdoll back out. But that might be bad because she’s disoriented when she does. Especially when I put her in quick, which hurts her.

We’ll find out soon. She says she doesn’t want me to do all the work and she has all the time off. I don’t want to do the same to her. Because of that, we’re going from me having the day and her having the night to me having even days and her having odd days. She will still need to check in on all her busy work on my days, but hopefully that won’t be like today where it was a big chunk of my day.

Now my coffee tastes good again. I wonder if I have to let it sit a little or its too bitter? Or maybe since the banana was sweet the coffee didn’t agree with it. Coffee is weird. But it’s really good when it’s good.

And that’s really all I had for today, Taylor. Thanks for keeping me company yesterday. I know you were having a hard night now and I appreciate you took the time out to help me.

–Andrea