Good morning, Taylor,

After two days I’m finally out again. I know I gave Ragdoll one day to fix up all my web stuff but I wasn’t expecting to have the next day burned up while she waited on the phone. She was really mad about that so I decided to just give her her space.

Today was weird. She had one errand to run, got it done really quick, then came home to let me out. But I had trouble coming out! We tried three times and the first time I just never got through the window. The second time we tried, I did make it mostly through, but it was almost like Ragdoll didn’t want to give up control. But she was the one who was pulling me in. The third time it worked, but it felt weird for a little while. She’s in her rag doll now, quietly sitting in the corner. I hope this doesn’t turn into a problem. I really need to learn how to take over myself instead of having her pull me in.

It does feel kind of weird how we have to work together. I can talk to her when she’s in control but she can’t when I’m in control. At least not like real words or thoughts. She leaves me notes sometimes, which is nice. But she also just talks to me before we switch.

Breakfast is coffee and the food she made the other day. A breakfast taco! She gave me an extra tortilla, so I had that as well. Is really good, and in the taco even better. I love that she makes food for me. I wonder if I will ever really learn to cook like she does. I did the eggs and bacon the other day.

How is my coffee already half gone?

I had a nice but quick talk with Didi last night. I showed her the pictures from the forest trip a few days a go, and she seemed to perk up at them. In Didi’s way. She thought they were lovely, and she liked the waterfall video. Ragdoll is getting paid soon so we might do another field trip Saturday. Groceries, too, although she wants to wait to bring me out for that for now. The place we went was expensive but it safer for both of us. I can look through the window and decide I want from there. And I can always add stuff to her grocery list.

She cleaned up the house for me! There’s not going to be a lot of cleanup today so I guess the day is all mine until sunset when I’ll need to let the vampire out of her rag doll. Maybe another movie. Or keep reading Alice in Wonderland.

I’m really thinking about taking over Ragdoll’s job. Its work from home so I’ll be safe to come out. I’ll be trained from the beginning, too, so I’ll know what to do. And she really doesn’t want to do the new job, but we need the money. At least this way I’ll be helping out and maybe she can do the cleaning. I’ll be running this house in no time!

But I really am just not sure what I want to do. I’m here now. I’m here a lot. But I’m not sure what to do. Ragdoll does a lot of stuff. She’s always busy. But I don’t know what to do. I’m really just doing what she does. She does internet stuff so I’m doing internet stuff. She doesn’t want her new job so I’m thinking of doing it. She has a lot of movies so I’m watching movies. I see Ragdoll working and there’s a lot more to do out there. But I don’t know how to find what I want to do. Or even how to find out what I want to do.

Why did I leave my spoon in my coffee? I don’t need to do that.

That taco was good but I spilled cheese on myself. I’ll need to wash that out.

Ragdoll called herself my Social Media Manager like I’m famous. I think she just wants to sound important. 🙂

I spent a lot of time yesterday back in The Backwoods. It all feels a little boring now back there. All these people in here who don’t know what they are and don’t care. Its sad. But I think we both prefer it that way. Maybe its selfish but this way, I get my time out here and Ragdoll still has her evenings. I do worry if someone else becomes interested in the outside. Didi doesnt think they will. Also, I worry about becoming a rag doll. If I get stuck in a rag doll, it’s just another way I’m not in the outside world.

I’m thinking lunch will be tomatoes and cucumbers. I have sandwich stuff but the taco felt a little heavy for me. I’ll decide when I get there. Ooh! I have an idea! We’ll see how it comes out.

I thought it was super sweet the other day when Ragdoll asked me to write my introduction and left me a bowl of tomatoes. She told me later “writers like snacks and you were writing.” It was a good little snack.

There has to be more to life than eating and movies and reading.

My coffee is done, Taylor, so I’ll sign off the letter. Hopefully I’ll be out more and more often as we all figure out how to coexist.

–Andrea